Over the past couple of months, God has brought me (literally) to uncontrollable bouts of weeping and prayer like I have not experienced for along time in my Christian journey. You see, someone who is so unexplain-ably dear to me is losing her sister to such a "dreaded curse of man" ... cancer. My heart breaks to unimaginable lengths for this woman who with her husband has dedicated their lives to the cause of Hope.
I have tried to reach out to comfort them with: words of encouragement, scripture, terms of endearment, anything that I can possibly imagine that will move them to a respite of peace for their wounded spirit. Please don't miss-interpret me they are strong in the "faith" bound stringently to "truth." But what can I do, to ease the pain, suffering, those cope-less moments (that affect us all). Have you ever been there?! Where I am?! With inescapable words, emotions, and angst. It was during these helpless moments that the Holy Spirit came to me with revelation and understanding. There is only one way to help them, and that it was profound in its simplicity and that it was to simply to ask, seek, on their behalf. The God of all creation is the only one who knows the depths of discouragement, despair, and desperation that they may be feeling. Which brings me to my point.
During my hours of weeping, I saw more clearly, "...until death," is powerful.
Until death:
- I will pray more for others than myself.
- I will give more than I receive.
- I will dwell in joy rather than despair
- I will build upon my Holy faith
- I will love without compromise
- I will trust that God is quite capable. He doesn't need me directing Him its the other way around.
Until death I will serve.....Wait a second, it seems I have allot to do!
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